THE ONE WITH ALL THE ANXIETY!!!!!

                                this post may seem a bit negative or gloomy,but this is what i felt about myself and this is about my experience of facing all those negative emotions and trying to turn them positive for myself....

A few months ago i took a test,an online anxiety test which was recommended  to me,i scored a 6 on 10.certainly this wasn't a test where i would have liked to score more,but to my disappointment i did and it did not feel good at all..somewhere i knew that i am a bit more anxious person than i thought i was but it did not come to my realization that it could be this much.the website where i took the test showed me a video where they talked all about bio-chemistry and the possible causes of anxiety in people...i agree that it was just a website and not a scientific test but the symptoms were pointing towards what i believed was a lot more anxiety than a normal person has,the stomach ailments,the relentless crying and many more things which were not a part of my life earlier.some events which happened in day to day life also kept bothering for days at length and being the over-thinker i am i kept paying heed to those negative emotions and ran to my mother or called up my sister for the smallest things that had happened which were like a big volcano explosion.the most difficult part was that i knew what was the problem,how it was affecting me and i even knew how to solve them but all those negative emotions had made me incapable of doing what i knew had to be done and was going to solve my problems,

 there was this one thing that nobody else is going to solve my problem than myself and THAT was it...i tried whatever i thought would relieve me of this anxiety,distractions,deep breathing,talking to my well wishers and every possible effort but with a belief that i was going to be okay and a little push to myself everyday,it had to take time,i was becoming a little less anxious everyday,a little less worried about what was going to happen in the future without spoiling what i had in the present.i guess that's where being a student of psychology helped me the most..i started to understand myself better and i realized that i am much stronger than i thought i was,

Catharsis,which means taking out everything that is going on in your mind helped me..i started writing and recording what i felt,and today when i read what i had written earlier makes me feel a little happy that i overcome it and also a little stupid because i worried about such a small thing.i guess that is what progress means.

negative emotions are all around us and they are going to hamper us from thinking positively about what we feel is right,at that moment that would be the most difficult thing that we would have to do but we should not stop thinking positively and recognizing what we have...i had my family and friends with me who helped me but moreover its you who has to help yourself and until you do that you will still be lying on the bed crying about everything in the world.so stay happy and cherish the moment...it has taken me a while to realize that but when i did,it was the happiest feeling in my life!!

CHEERS!!!

Being Alone

when you're alone...

                     Few days ago my friend showed me a video named "how to be alone",it showed how one can be happy in ones own company.After watching it i felt that i could relate to it ,as being alone has become a part of my life.Being alone does not always mean that you don't have any friends or don't sit with anyone in class or  do not hangout with friends, being alone to me means living in a space where you are just you and  and not pretending to be anyone else just to impress others,it is that space where one can focus on the thoughts and introspect the inner being ,even if you are not thinking, you are spending time with yourself doing what you like...so when you are alone just grab your shoes and go for a walk and look around at the people and nature around you.After doing that you will feel a positive energy coming inside you and happiness will find you...and it gives the insight into yourself and the outer world,so the next time you are alone don't think that you will be bored just do something you like and i promise you will end up enjoying....but make sure you don't stay alone all the time...because staying alone all the time is very dangerous for mental health....and you have friends that you can call at any time of the day and talk....so be happy and enjoy your life 

cheers!!

Friends for ever....

Its 1:20 pm right now and i am still in my night dress..standing by my window and meaninglessly looking at the  vehicles pass by . I have exams in three days and then the last week of the year....when i look back to the year passed by and find myself in a happy place than i ever could  be despite of some lows. i find myself happier and grown up than all the 18 years of my life. the main reason for my happiness is none other than the wonderful people in my life called "FRIENDS".

To be frank i was not a kind of person who had best friends and a "gang" but now i do.they are the most wonderful miracles ever happened to me.All the laughter's,talks,discussions are a part of my life and now i don't have to worry about difficulties or problems because i know that they will be there for me when i need them.They know what it is like to be me.I am lucky that i have them in my life and i never want to lose them.

I hope that i stay in their lives forever and be there for them like they have been for me during sickness and in health.At last i would like to say that...

       "They say that good things take time,but really great things happen in a blink of an eye,the chances of meeting someone like you were million to one.I cannot believe that you're one in a million"

HAPPY ENDINGS....

Today I was watching the last episode of the tv  show F.R.I.E.N.D.S . the scene where they all leave their keys on the table and the last shot ending on the door made me feel nostalgic. like every tv show and every movie our lives also have happy endings .all our problems,fights,issues,are going to end .as nothing lasts forever then why should they?? When we are in a problem we feel the time is not passing and the problems end seems far away at that time all we have to do is believe.we need to believe that it is going to end sometime and move on to solve whatever is going in our lives.i know it is easier said than done but believing is the easiest thing you can do at that time as believing wont solve the problem but will help you in facing it...

 
Bad things have an end and so does the good things .The only difference is that we do not want it to end. . But there are some things which last with you forever .and they are your family,friends,companions. like movies our lives are going to be happy and have happy endings to the problems .All we have to do is believe....

So at the end I would like to say is that never stop believing and the foremost thing never stop LIVING…..

SISTERS....

Why I chose this topic to write today is just because I am missing my sister right now. She has been my partner in all things from studies to dancing and doing stuff together. We never needed anyone’s company for watching movies, going out for just the heck of it, and even getting bored. We were the two sisters who never used to fight, which is ironic between siblings. She left two months ago to pursue her studies in a place far away from me and our home. And suddenly I seem to realize that life exists without her being here right by my side. Although she is just a text away its different than what it used to be. When I used to get scared at nights she used to be there to hold her hand and sleep. But now when I get scared now I don’t have her by my side. Sisters are like that they come into your lives and suddenly your life brightens up and when they leave you feel a piece of you has left with them. I know I am being a little over too emotional but it becomes difficult to control yourself when you talk about a person so close to you. Her going has changed me and made me a better and responsible person, and has made me accept the fact that she has to leave someday to make a world of her own and so do I.

Now I am ready for that as well. I am able to accept the reality and move on. Like everything has a good and a bad side this also has some dvantages and disadvantages. I can not fill her shoes and do what she used to do when she was here but I am trying but nobody can replace a sister because no matter how far she is, she will always be there to cry on small things and be sentimental but at the same time support you in whatever you do. I don’t know about others but my sister is one in a million and will be always…..